Change new template and I love it :)
Posted by
Lavender
I have a mini project that I just kick off last 2 months. I have been trying to loose weight. So far working fine although the progress is slow. Hoping to do my best ;) InsyaAllah.
People may wonder, after all these years, being fat, why the sudden change of direction? Is it because I want to get married? Or I want to impress certain somebody? Well, let me put it here, the top reasons why I want to loose weight:
- I fear for my health. When I started, my BMI is 35. That is freaking obese!!! Now after two months, I am down to 34.2. Still a long way to go to get my BMI down to 20-25 range.
- I settled for a fact that I am never gonna get married. There goes the thought of having someone to take care of me, not to mentioned to have kids. I will grow old alone, and like it or not maybe die alone. Even if I have a hubby, what guarantees that he will be with me till the day I die?
With that thought in mind, I decided not to be a burden. With my heavy weight, I will be a BIG burden. First off, I did not have any husband, or son to carry my dead body. I could not be depending on my 2 nephews. I am not their responsibility. And who is left to carry my soon to be dead body? A bunch of strangers. Its bad enough they have to carry a stranger to graveyard, a heavy one is not an experience someone would look forward to.
I have been thinking about it for quite some time. Its no longer about how people will see me, but more to how I would be such a burden when I die.
