~hitam putih kehidupan~

things that i never will be able to tell face to face to a single soul, yes, i am a coward, unable to express myself, so?

I just finished my 2011 financial planning. Suffice to say I don't have enough money to do Masters in the next 5 years. By end 2016, I will be able to save up money for my family to use. Not for my tuition fee...but I really want it so bad....

Ya Allah, give me strength, lapangkan urusan aku, tunaikanlah permintaan hambamu yang lemah ini...right now, that is my only goal, lepas dah settle duit pi haji sume. nak kawin? jangan harap? bukan takat x cukup duit, xde sapa nak...so redho ja la...

But seriuously, can I wait that long? 2017? that is another freaking 7 years? but if i could not wait, what can I do? its not like i have a super duper brilliant mind that schools and companies are lining up to offer a scholarship. I have to gather my own funds. Sabaq...sabaq....surely, there will be a way. 2017 is the worst case scenario? lets not get the hope too high, why not aim for 2020? bole join Che Det..hehehehehe..

oklah..dah mengarut..ofis pon sejuk beku ni, dari pagi tak buat apa, dok sibok buat financial planning ni..tu la ..tengok benda ni sangat, kan dah gundah gulana...nak balik aa....

What you'll find here

Space to vent and to let out things that I can never share with any living things (human). I am not an animal person, so cat will not help ;p.

Personal experience and hopes, wishes and gratitudes and always reality that bites hard will be pen down and shared with anyone who cares to read.

Lavender is....

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born Muslim and trying hard to live like one as well. overweight physically and have been trying since forever to loose weigtht. loner and eventhough with a group of friends, will not say much unless asked. never been the centre of attention (apart from my figure that really stoods out!!) never been in serious relationship before due to the fact that I am not pretty and fat and not friendly. having said that a really good fren and damn good supporter.