~hitam putih kehidupan~

You,

I don't know who you are yet, and am not sure whether I will ever find you. Looking around, I see many couples and I would really love to feel what they are feeling. Do what they do, some more than others. Listing down here things that I would love to / wish that you do for me..hehehe...

1. Daily hugs, before going for work and after coming back for work
2. Listen to how your day is at work.
3. You hug me from behind and I can rest on your torso.

I'll keep on adding to the list as I move along....

Assalamualaikum,

The other day was your birthday, and I sent you that song. It tells exactly what I feel inside. Your birthday is exactly 2 weeks apart from mine and I think that is why we remembered each other’s so much. Not a single year that you fail to wish me and I felt compelled to do the same to you.

We belong to the same zodiac, Cancer and that is why we got along well those days. We both understand each other, being in ROTU in our diploma years. Although you were in Navy and I was in Army, we both understand what is it like to juggle between both civilian and military life. We even took the same degree and not sure why, I was always open to help you, never said no, not even once I think.

As close as we used to be, it is surprising that we never went out together, not a date, just go out, have dinner or drinks together. I never demanded any of those and allowed you to treat me as you like. I thought we could be friends for life, I figure at some point I will need a man in my life and you will be there. I have never clicked with anyone the way I did with you. Even now, no one comes close, really. I would probably need your manly views, manly advice or any manly pep talk that would help me through my daily life.

But it all ended the moment we take our own ways. I started working and you never wanted to see me again. I remember the last time we met was in April 2006 when I showed you my offer letter. After that we only connect virtually. You never made it even once to my attempts to see you. I was very sad, really I am. I could not stop feeling sad until today, so that is why when I listen to this song, I felt it even more.

That is why I started all this no reply crap, I still wanted to talk to you, once in a while, but I have a feeling you no longer needed me as a friend. Be as it may, I will still be talking to you until I found the one that I can talk to the way I talk to you. So if one you stop hearing from me, it can either be that I have found the one or I am dead (sorry to put it so bluntly).
Till next time, take care.

14th July 2009

Assalamualaikum,

Hope you are doing fine. Don't know why but this is my song of the day.

Happy Birthday, may Allah bless you and everything that you do.

ONE DAY IN YOUR LIFE

One day in your life
You'll remember a place
Someone touching your face
You'll come back and you'll look around, you'll . . .

One day in your life
You'll remember the love you found here
You'll remember me somehow
Though you don't need me nowI will stay in your heart
And when things fall apart
You'll remember one day . . .

One day in your life
When you find that you're always waiting
For a love we used to share
Just call my name, and I'll be there
You'll remember me somehow
Though you don't need me nowI will stay in your heart
And when things fall apart
You'll remember one day . . .

One day in your life
When you find that you're always lonely
For a love we used to share
Just call my name, and I'll be there