~hitam putih kehidupan~

Assalamualaikum,

The other day was your birthday, and I sent you that song. It tells exactly what I feel inside. Your birthday is exactly 2 weeks apart from mine and I think that is why we remembered each other’s so much. Not a single year that you fail to wish me and I felt compelled to do the same to you.

We belong to the same zodiac, Cancer and that is why we got along well those days. We both understand each other, being in ROTU in our diploma years. Although you were in Navy and I was in Army, we both understand what is it like to juggle between both civilian and military life. We even took the same degree and not sure why, I was always open to help you, never said no, not even once I think.

As close as we used to be, it is surprising that we never went out together, not a date, just go out, have dinner or drinks together. I never demanded any of those and allowed you to treat me as you like. I thought we could be friends for life, I figure at some point I will need a man in my life and you will be there. I have never clicked with anyone the way I did with you. Even now, no one comes close, really. I would probably need your manly views, manly advice or any manly pep talk that would help me through my daily life.

But it all ended the moment we take our own ways. I started working and you never wanted to see me again. I remember the last time we met was in April 2006 when I showed you my offer letter. After that we only connect virtually. You never made it even once to my attempts to see you. I was very sad, really I am. I could not stop feeling sad until today, so that is why when I listen to this song, I felt it even more.

That is why I started all this no reply crap, I still wanted to talk to you, once in a while, but I have a feeling you no longer needed me as a friend. Be as it may, I will still be talking to you until I found the one that I can talk to the way I talk to you. So if one you stop hearing from me, it can either be that I have found the one or I am dead (sorry to put it so bluntly).
Till next time, take care.