It was his birthday 2 days ago. I sent him and email with my pictures of recent trip to Cape Town. Suddenly today I feel the urge to peek to his FB page, and so I did.
He got engaged in May, would have expected the wedding to be end of year maybe? during the school holiday. Then it hit me, I would feel really guilty if I still emailing him. I vow to myself that was the last one. Am not gonna send anything anymore. Finito.
Am a bit bluesy from the moment I found out about his engagement, but not as sad that I expected to be though......Maybe I have grown out of him? I hope so, people say time will heal all wounds. I just hope I can forget him.
The part that made me sad the most is that to-date nobody wants me, not in any way imaginable to mankind, pathetic rite? I know. I am praying for Allah to spare me all these feelings, let me not crave for a companion, now or ever, as I am pretty much sure that I will never get married now. Seriously.
Next milestone, go to Hajj, bring my parents with me, insyaAllah...(before that maybe to Brazil...WC 2014) already have friends that have the same interest with, so most likely insyaAllah, i'll go!!
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