I finally made a move on the matchmaking website that I was in. However, it was not really a good move. I message a guy that is currently living in EU nation, saying that I found his profile interesting, and if he thinks likewise, I would like to pursue things further.
The instant reply that I get is distance is an issue. Why didn't I think of that? I should have known better, people always-> almost never wanted a relationship that is complicated to begin with. I guess that is why I did not get any messages from other people, not a single one in the last 6 months. The feeling of being rejected is slowly sinking in.
I told myself this morning, 5 years...I have to be patient with all this for another 5 years. I am working at it. I hope by end of 2015, I will be able to move on to something better. InsyaAllah. I am not hoping everything is smooth sailing, but I hope Allah will help me. I just have to be patient and stick to my plan. Else that is beyond my control, I should not be too worried about it. Jodoh for instance. I leave it totally to Allah's hand. Best I can do now is to improve myself.
I must be strong, I must not be weak.
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