~hitam putih kehidupan~

I've been reading blogs on Monday morning. My boss is out for 2 weeks (school hols!!) . I have tonnes of work and actually good at concentrating...if only the definition goes like this..hehehehe...

Concentration is the ability to think about absolutely nothing when it is absolutely necessary. ~~~Ray Knight

Stumbled upon this one blog (redirected from comments that she made on Dr. M's blog. Interesting actually, she is the same age as I am, an engineer (probably chemical as well..) and not married yet.

But the thing is she is an 'L' and a practising Muslim as well. Which make me think....I am single woman, never been attached. Have not really show my affection to any man in particular. Could I be one of the 'L' community? If you are fitting in the profile, I can definitely match it.

After like 2 minutes of thinking, I am without a doubt convinced myself that I am NOT!! I may have no strong feelings to any man in particular because on the surface, I don't need to. I have a sound job, living my life almost the way that I wanted and best of all I am super-duper independent, which translate to I Don't Need a MAN....yet.

Deep inside I always long for the one that I can rest my head on his shoulder. Listen to me grumbling, complaining all day. Plan our next vacation (I want to go to South Africa for World Cup!!), have children with, teach my kids soccer, do all the manly stuffs in the house for me and that one person to grow old and spend time together with..

With that, I am convinced and still not giving up hope for that person to find me. I don't have the will power to go and search for him. If we are meant to be, we are meant to be. Insyaallah. I am glad that I have not drifted from what I believe is the best way of life, as a Muslim and hopefully Allah will keep me in His path. Let me be safe and take good care of myself until I find him...Aminn....