~hitam putih kehidupan~

things that i never will be able to tell face to face to a single soul, yes, i am a coward, unable to express myself, so?

I watched this movie last night, and it reminds me a lot about Shahrul. I know there is no freaking chance that I will be with him, unless Allah says so. But I could not stop missing him and all the memories that we have together, it might not be much but its enough for me to live my life and know how bad it hurts to be in unrequinted love.

This Ramadhan I prayed for many things, one of which for Allah to erase all this feeling to be with somebody, this longing to be loved by someone or this desire for companionship. To have it all wiped off my heart and mind for as long as I can remember, that is unless Allah decides to send someone for me. I will pray for a soulmate but until then I hope I can annihilate all this feelings, until then.......


p/s: I like the photo shoot at the end of the movie, want to have that with you

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born Muslim and trying hard to live like one as well. overweight physically and have been trying since forever to loose weigtht. loner and eventhough with a group of friends, will not say much unless asked. never been the centre of attention (apart from my figure that really stoods out!!) never been in serious relationship before due to the fact that I am not pretty and fat and not friendly. having said that a really good fren and damn good supporter.