~hitam putih kehidupan~

things that i never will be able to tell face to face to a single soul, yes, i am a coward, unable to express myself, so?

I know how to deal with my problem in previous post, just treat all these guys as 'eye candy'. Safe strategy, even Kara think so about the new season's AI contestant, Casey James..hahaha..

With that, I don't really feel guilty for liking to look or feeling comfortable with a person for a short period of time ;)

I watched 90210 just now. Out of all the vain teen drama, I like this the most. Tonite's episode, Silver's mom was buried, and Teddy skip the funeral despite helping Silver deals with her sick mom and always by her side. He did send a bouquet of flowers to her though. So Silver went on to check up Teddy and find out why he missed the funeral. Teddy was kind of ashamed, he thinks that he is a coward, for having no courage to face funeral (having skip his mom's funeral previously as well).

Silver comforted him, assuring that he is not a coward, and in the scene, they were so close and the next comforting to do was to HUG him. I mean this is not just a 2 seconds hug. This is a real big comforting hug. I get all warm and fuzzy just by watching it. Its the same feeling that I had when I watched Takashi & Amane hugs in Jap drama With Love.

It is the best comfort that you can feel. Being in someone else's arm. Hold on to completely and just feel that somebody is with you. It is also to me, the most affectionate act one can do or receive, be it among lovers, friends, mother-kids, even student-teacher. It tops kissing in the romance department (not that I have any). I thing I would give anything for a big, warm, enclosing hug.

Anybody could use a hug, anytime. When I get married, I'll hug him everyday.

What you'll find here

Space to vent and to let out things that I can never share with any living things (human). I am not an animal person, so cat will not help ;p.

Personal experience and hopes, wishes and gratitudes and always reality that bites hard will be pen down and shared with anyone who cares to read.

Lavender is....

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born Muslim and trying hard to live like one as well. overweight physically and have been trying since forever to loose weigtht. loner and eventhough with a group of friends, will not say much unless asked. never been the centre of attention (apart from my figure that really stoods out!!) never been in serious relationship before due to the fact that I am not pretty and fat and not friendly. having said that a really good fren and damn good supporter.