I have issues. I am lonely but for now am pretty sure I will be like this forever, pretty much very sure.
See, I was working past 4 days, and believe it or not, spend quite an amount of time inside (CCB) one particular person that I spend most of my time with, is Khairul. And I enjoyed his company, what is wrong with me? he's married!!! I seem to like married ppl nowadays.
Well, not many ppl talk to me eventhough I am the only girl inside for the past few days, and he was always talk to me when I go in. I noticed that he looks to my face quite often, which I don't think anybody ever do it. Although I didn;t really speak to him the way I used to talk with Shahrul, I like his company. So imagine spending almost 16 hrs of the day (2 days) with him in my sight, it does makes me go crazy. And he was on leave yesterday, today he is in, but I stopped going in already, just stay put at my place. I called the panel without any expectation, but he picks up, suddenly I realised, I missed being inside CCB with him....oh what is wrong with me?
I think if only he was not married, we will have a good chance to being a couple. And NO, I am not going to pursue a married man. Its just that I feel comfortable with him, I laughed at his joke, he laughed at mine. Basically, if it wasn't for him, I think none of the rest will speak to me. This is dead wrong.....seriously wrong....and I hate myself for feeling this.
Ya Allah, tolong...please send someone to me, someone that will find happiness being with me and I will find happiness with him, someone that is not affliated to any other person, Ya Allah, I am begging you, please help me......
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