~hitam putih kehidupan~

things that i never will be able to tell face to face to a single soul, yes, i am a coward, unable to express myself, so?

Last Wednesday, during tazkirah, Farhana indirectly told us that she is taking Masters in Mechanical Engineering. Tersentap jugak waktu tu...I have always thought of doing Masters, that is even included in my 5 year plan. Just that with current rate, the plan may have to be delayed. So memang tersentap bila dengar someone who just started working less than 2 years, 4 years my junior is taking a step ahead mine.

While driving back that night, I told myself, be patient, insyaAllah in 5 years, I may be able to do something about it. Patience, I need those, a lot....

And this morning I saw strings of emails from my classmates. Two more is walking down the aisle. So its official, I am the only one left. Kinda sad huh? but what to do. I have no power over this. I don't even know how to usaha...seriously I am pathetic.

Patience, its all I need right now....

What you'll find here

Space to vent and to let out things that I can never share with any living things (human). I am not an animal person, so cat will not help ;p.

Personal experience and hopes, wishes and gratitudes and always reality that bites hard will be pen down and shared with anyone who cares to read.

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born Muslim and trying hard to live like one as well. overweight physically and have been trying since forever to loose weigtht. loner and eventhough with a group of friends, will not say much unless asked. never been the centre of attention (apart from my figure that really stoods out!!) never been in serious relationship before due to the fact that I am not pretty and fat and not friendly. having said that a really good fren and damn good supporter.