I was in singapore last weekend. Got there because of work, but I took the opportunity to meet with my second crush...hehehe...
I pretty much remembers all my crushes, but hey, this one is dedicated to him. We were in the same class since standard 1 till standard 6. I only realized that I may have a crush on him when I was in standard 6? probably...
Anyhoo...I contacted him, and lucky that he still remembers me and agreed to meet up :) We promised to meet in front of Takashimaya at 8pm. I got there some 30 mins earlier, as I am not familiar with the place, hence I hate to be lost and late. He was punctual, but he didn't see me. I went up to him. Upon saying hi, he put his hands on my back like all the mat saleh do. (He's a Chinese, and I don't think he think that is not appropriate) Plus, it was a friendly gesture, I don't see the harm in that. But for me, knowing that how much I badly need a hug, left me to want more.
I even fantasized during some school reunion in 2003, if I see him there, I would pull him over and just hug him. He is comfortably taller than I am. So if and when I hug him, I will be safely rested on his chest, easily. And I think I can just rest there, for a moment, forgot about everything and settle in his arm....Well, a girl can always dream, rite?
We met again next day when he passed me a free theater ticket, and upon parting, same gesture took place. I had it played in my mind just to hug him. He may be suprised, but I don't think he will resist it. Its just a hug, I bet he have hugged many chicks before ;p
But I sort of dissappointed that I did not loose control, which means, I did not hug him...
Until I find someone who is halal for me, I hope to be given the strength to hold myself. I might loose it if I see him again. Except that I am not sure when the next time will be....
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