~hitam putih kehidupan~

I have few groups of friends. First, the one in high school.We were classmate in Form 1 and parted ways later on but still friendship remains till today. One of us is always the consistent one trying to get ppl together and I would try my best effort to attend. I am glad to join, and sometimes I came up with a plan as well.

Second one is my uni friend, even this I have two groups. One that I study with (i.e classmate) and another is the one I live with. I am quite close with both. There are 10 in the 'classmate' group. They live close to one another while I lived in different part of the campus. When we graduated I did not really see them any more. having said that, I do try to schedule a time to meet but always the case that they won't even come to KL to meet me. I am supposed to be the one that goes to Shah Alam, or any other place to meet them. I have heard of some of them jalan-jalan kat KL (Times Square and such...). You know its just freaking 20 minutes from my place!!! Even now I will still try to meet them in Shah Alam. I have never demanded to meet them in KL coz I know that they'll give tonnes of excuses...busy..bla..bla..KL is far...bla..bla...

The second group is the one I live with. Since we belong to the same batch of this particular extra curricular activities, we have to live together. There are if I am not mistaken 30 girls in one batch. I am OK with most of them and quite close with a few. For this group I feel belong to. Some of them has been to my house. Mind you, we took 2 buses and it is a long journey from Shah Alam considering the traffic and all....when we graduated, I did organise quite a few things just to get ppl together.

Last year, I think I have organised all the trips to some of the girl's kenduri. I did not missed even one. But always happens that I put the effort of initiating things, and then asking them to come, some answered. For those who did not answer...ask again...and again...Everything is not firm untill last minute canceled because they have something....Not all are like that but it is damn frustrating!!! I double and sometimes triple, quadraple confirm their attendance!!!!

There is also few ppl that NEVER showed up to any of the trip, main excuse is work!!! are you going to work around the clock? None---not a single activities that they join. If you do not wish to be in the circle anymore, just let me know, and I'll remove you from the mailing list. Coming March, there will be another kenduri and I am organising, except that this time I only extend to those that I know will attend.

Can I just delete the number of those that never responded or never showed up? As long as I have the number, I'll still forward the invitation to them and end up I feel irritated. Tell me is it so hard to make time to meet your friend?? Am I that worthless to you? And is it worth it to have this kind of friend anyway????

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